Medicine - “Fried Awake”
Probably the best song I’ve heard in a long time. Makes me want to sleep on clouds.
So today I realized that Facebook is where you’ll find all the crazies. I’d rather just have them have a tumblr page since all they do is just reblog the dumbest bullshit pictures anyway. All during weird parts of the day, too. Get offline and do something PRODUCTIVE!
A part of me would LIKE to delete Facebook, but then I know I’ll regret losing all those funny memories. I wish I hadn’t delete my Myspace years ago because now I feel like going back to my messages, comments page, old pictures, etc. and reminisce through all my memories.
It’s 10:21PM and it’s past my bed time. If I ever go past 10 again, I will be so cranky. This. Sucks. Adult. Life. Sucks.
I am reminiscing way too much. I figured now that I am super occupied, I wouldn’t be thinking about anything. But no, I still do. This always happens when I’m driving to work, during lunch, and driving back home.
My brain is so fried. So so so fried. I’m thinking about so many things.
I don’t love anyone - Belle and Sebastian
The way the things are going are just weird.
It has been almost eight months since graduation and still nothing. I actually gave up applying for government (city/county) jobs since I heard it is EXTREMELY hard to get into and I would either have to a) know someone (duh) or b) have been an intern in the past. ANYWAY, I am back at it again and applying like crazy. I am also applying to school districts because I also wouldn’t mind doing administration stuff and do have experience in this. If I can get into an environmental firm as an office/administration assistant, that works for me, too.
Why the hell has it been so hard? I’m actually getting MORE responses ever since my old manager revised my resume over a month or so ago (which is good!) But now I need to nail these interviews (when they happen). I haven’t had many (I want to say maybe six? But for shitty jobs…) but I am getting a little more comfortable.
Anyway, back to applying for random jobs. Trust me, it’s been a long ass journey to get to a decent job. I just want to be at a place where I can be productive, happy, and make a difference. Ideally, I’d like a government job but we’ll see, haha.
Today marks six months of my graduation date. Still jobless and I feel like I’m starting to go backwards instead of forwards. I just want to get into the environmental field already. There ARE jobs, people just don’t want me. I’m applying for shitty jobs in the meantime since I really need a job, but it’s so discouraging too at the same time.
These last six months haven’t been the best. It’s been super rough plus, my grandfather just passed away on Monday. Nothing seriously hurts more than seeing your mom sad. I dedicate this song to him, because I know my mom likes this song and would do the same, too.
I hope these next six months turn around. I’m starting to feel restless.
Because Lush is going to keep me up a little longer and think more.